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Through Windows: Delivery #2 [Jul. 1st, 2009|11:23 pm]
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Double Blind


Crowley doesn't mention the alley, because he's not good at explaining why he does the things he does. Like walk a block out of his way just so he can reach the bookshop by coming down the back alley, where there's brick upon dingy brick until the solid wall of the building breaks and there's the inexplicable, narrow floor-to-ceiling window. It's rarely covered, because Aziraphale isn't good at remembering to draw the blind.

Presumably, it would've been put there to facilitate side-street displays: stacks of books or other wares, but, strangely, Aziraphale doesn't seem to have thought of that, either. There are a few books sat on the low ledge, but they're dust-covered enough to suggest that they're exiles rather than wares placed for purposes of tempting.

Except Crowley is very tempted.

It's not to say that he's been hankering after a volume of American sport statistics dating to the years between 1918 and 1988. On the contrary, that book could be put to some interesting use. And it's not to say a full directory of rock albums released from 1955 up to the present wouldn't have any merit, either. It's what's beyond those books, what he can see as he passes in those few precious seconds.

Aziraphale's desk is parallel with the window, and Aziraphale himself, usually in profile, is bent low over the Telegraph crossword, brow knit in concentration as he neglects his cocoa. Crowley can fairly smell it, glass be damned. There's nothing like Cadbury's.

And the taste of it, well—he would sooner have that off the angel's lips.


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Any time Aziraphale catches himself wondering at what an impractical creature the demon can be, he needs only remind himself that Crowley did not, after all, elect to live in a first-floor flat. Ground-level would've made tasks such as this infinitely easier—but then, guiltily, Aziraphale has to admit that what he's doing isn't strictly a task. Spying has not been on his roster of duties for some years now.

And so he perches as he is, stock-still, cursing his mortal body's low center of gravity. He's farther off than he'd like to be, of course, but his eyesight and Crowley's drawn curtains compensate somewhat for the distance. Crowley's bedroom emits a curiously soft orange glow, framing the demon's gently bent silhouette and pale features in an almost golden cast. Crowley reads at night: book after book, subject upon subject.

It steals Aziraphale's breath.

And he wonders what good it would do if he were to start adding to the stack more actively, pressing tomes into Crowley's strangely careful hands as he takes his leave of the shop, day after day, week after week. He's done it only on rare occasions.

He wonders if, like those books, he might come to lie upon that second, empty pillow.


- Continue: Catching Shadows -
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[User Picture]From: [info]miss_morland
2009-07-01 10:55 pm (UTC)

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And the taste of it, well—he would sooner have that off the angel's lips.

JUST DO IT, CROWLEY.

I love your take on this -- that the windows become a symbol of that invisible boundary between them. Lovely. :-)
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:55 pm (UTC)

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He will, don't you worry ;)
[User Picture]From: [info]slightlytookish
2009-07-01 10:59 pm (UTC)

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These are wonderful. I love seeing how Aziraphale and Crowley think about each other :D
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:54 pm (UTC)

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Thank you <3
[User Picture]From: [info]random_nexus
2009-07-01 11:17 pm (UTC)

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*soft sigh* Lovely, just wonderfully lovely. I could see it so well! *hugs fic and pets it gently*
Thank you!
<3

(Interesting bit of synchronicity: I began reading this just as my cd hit my fav tracks from "city of angels". Seriously!)
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:54 pm (UTC)

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The image of you petting a ficlet is adorable <3
[User Picture]From: [info]derivatizing
2009-07-01 11:24 pm (UTC)

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This was adorable. Good work, as per usual.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:53 pm (UTC)

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Many thanks; glad you liked it!
[User Picture]From: [info]briebribeez
2009-07-01 11:29 pm (UTC)

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oh gosh.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:53 pm (UTC)

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<3
[User Picture]From: [info]sheerpoetry
2009-07-01 11:48 pm (UTC)

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It's what's beyond those books, what he can see as he passes in those few precious seconds.

He wonders if, like those books, he might come to lie upon that second, empty pillow.


This is lovely! I really like how you "caught" both of them spying on each other!

[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:52 pm (UTC)

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Thank you - this one was a lot of fun! Yours has been delivered, by the way - it's the most recent post.
[User Picture]From: [info]hsavinien
2009-07-02 03:41 am (UTC)

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Mnnn, I liiike Aziraphale's p.o.v. bit.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:52 pm (UTC)

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Thank you; I really rather enjoyed writing this one :)
[User Picture]From: [info]ladymouse2
2009-07-02 05:03 am (UTC)

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This is so exquisite! A pair of miniatures, bookending each other. Something very poignant about each sneaking up on the other, less a voyeur’s preoccupation, than something a little shy, a little longing--each on the outside looking in on the other's world, where they can never quite cross.

Crowley longing to taste the cocoa from Aziraphale's lips and Aziraphale wistfully wondering if bribery with books might earn him a place in Crowley's bed someday, neither of these seem in the category of happy lust of so many stories. Their desire defines the boundaries between them.

So many writers have Crowley dislike books and reading--to comic effect--but here, I very much like the revelation that Crowley is a voracious reader, granted it's likely to inspire some Machiavellian tempting, but his bending over a book the way Aziraphale bends over his crossword puzzle, reinforces their kinship and makes the separation that much more regretable.

Thank you for the treat of your GO fiction!!
[User Picture]From: [info]marzikin
2009-07-02 11:47 am (UTC)

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^ This comment is almost as lovely as the piece itself. If I'd thought more about it, rather than having to dash out as I must in a minute, I would have liked to have come up with such precise observations.

*applauds you both!*
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:51 pm (UTC)

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Her comments are always that amazing. I feel so fortunate every time one lands!

Thank you <3
[User Picture]From: [info]ladymouse2
2009-07-02 09:06 pm (UTC)

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Why, thank you! A drawback of my taking so much time over a review post is it limits how many I can write and how often. But if a story has given me pleasure or even if "pleasure" isn't the right word for a dark fic but gave me food for thought, I try to give the writer a return by being as exact as I can in what moved me.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:51 pm (UTC)

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My darling, as ever, your insight is gorgeous. And gorgeously written, at that. As always, thank you: it's a privilege!
[User Picture]From: [info]ladymouse2
2009-07-02 09:14 pm (UTC)

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You're more than welcome. But you know I don't make up what I say. I only see what you put there in the first place. Lovely; tenderly and gently observed.
[User Picture]From: [info]dragonmad
2009-07-02 09:55 am (UTC)

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Love!!!!

Serious love for this.

*memories*
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:44 pm (UTC)

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Love right back at'cha! <3
[User Picture]From: [info]gothikmaus
2009-07-02 12:48 pm (UTC)

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I like the idea of them watching each other from afar, as if having a window between them made their act of spying somewhat safer.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:42 pm (UTC)

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I do, too - I'm glad that this piece has resonated with so many people, thank you!
[User Picture]From: [info]melodywilde
2009-07-02 01:01 pm (UTC)

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Oooh. Yes. That was surprisingly hot for something with no actual sex.

And...er...
There's nothing like Cadbury's.
Since I'm down to my last Wispa bar, that line just speaks to me. *g*
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:40 pm (UTC)

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Oooh, Wispa! I love those things *g*

Thank you <3
[User Picture]From: [info]bittersweetwish
2009-07-02 01:26 pm (UTC)

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Oh, I loved this.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-02 01:39 pm (UTC)

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Thank you very much! I hadn't expected so many lovely reactions to such a short piece <3
[User Picture]From: [info]waxbean
2009-07-02 08:47 pm (UTC)

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I love the way you do parallel structure here -- makes the whole thing wonderfully satisfying.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-03 07:54 am (UTC)

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It was originally supposed to be two drabbles, but then I thought, hmmm - better to pair them up, maybe, as mirrors in a single piece :) Thank you!
[User Picture]From: [info]sirius_luva
2009-07-03 02:38 pm (UTC)

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Crowley reads at night: book after book, subject upon subject.

It steals Aziraphale's breath.

And he wonders what good it would do if he were to start adding to the stack more actively, pressing tomes into Crowley's strangely careful hands as he takes his leave of the shop, day after day, week after week.

He wonders if, like those books, he might come to lie upon that second, empty pillow.


This stole my breath. XP So beautiful! *snuggles the fic* I'm ill, but this made me feel better, like some warm, soothing soup.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-03 05:04 pm (UTC)

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Awww, thanks <3 Glad you liked it!
[User Picture]From: [info]sirius_luva
2009-07-15 12:11 pm (UTC)

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How could I not? It was so beautiful I could practically see it happening before my eyes, and feel what they felt.
[User Picture]From: [info]sixbitsforfact
2009-07-04 05:46 pm (UTC)

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I'd been hoping you'd write more GO fic. I love your Crowley. So bang on.
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-04 05:47 pm (UTC)

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I write GO fic pretty continuously, if somewhat sporadically due to how busy I've been for the past couple years! It's one fandom I never plan on leaving :)

Thank you!
[User Picture]From: [info]ida_pea
2009-07-06 05:21 am (UTC)

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I've got to change up my icons and include a GO one again. You've outdone yourself with this one, lady. I love the fact that they're both spying on each other. Crowley's bedroom emits a curiously soft orange glow, framing the demon's gently bent silhouette and pale features in an almost golden cast. Crowley reads at night: book after book, subject upon subject. Sheer loveliness. Must also I mention that the UST is so hot I can feel it through my laptop's screen?!
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-08 08:17 pm (UTC)

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...yeah. This one kind of blew me backwards, too, actually, in the writing. And it's not very often I can say that about one of my own pieces. It just sort of...crackled. I'm terribly pleased that so many people seem to have enjoyed it; thank you!
[User Picture]From: [info]linnpuzzle
2009-07-09 02:51 pm (UTC)

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Crowley's bedroom emits a curiously soft orange glow, framing the demon's gently bent silhouette and pale features in an almost golden cast. Crowley reads at night: book after book, subject upon subject.

It steals Aziraphale's breath.


MMMMM, that was a beautifully caught moment in the mids of these two's interaction.

Edited at 2009-07-09 02:51 pm (UTC)
[User Picture]From: [info]irisbleufic
2009-07-09 04:57 pm (UTC)

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Thank you, my dear *hugs* I find myself already wanting to play more with what I started here.